Darkness that ensnares you when you least expect it. That sense of somebody watching you but when you turn around there is only empty space. Time being frittered away on meaningless tasks instead of experiencing something wholesome and worthwhile. Travelling to unknown places solo and not knowing what dangers may lay ahead. Growing so old by myself with nobody there for support and ending my days in a care home being abused by violent, poorly trained staff.
Should that stop you from living life to the full? No.